When the Laughter Stops.

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I, like most of you, was completely shocked not only by the news that Robin Williams had not only died, but that he did so by his own hand.  I’ve never cried over a celebrity passing before, but for some reason this was different.  I grew up on his movies, from Hook to Dead Poet’s, Mrs. Doubtfire to Good Will Hunting.  And there was something paternal in his persona that seemed warm, caring and loving. Yesterday morning I was reading tributes and watching clips and couldn’t stop crying. It’s unbelievably sad for his family, his children in particular, and sadder yet that someone so loved by so many felt that depressed. That alone. That hopeless.

If anything can be taken away from this loss it’s that mental illness is real, unrelenting and incredibly hard to manage.  Even those with access to the best care struggle to find ways to cope and those with the biggest, happiest, most perfect personalities may be dealing with demons inside.  I know nothing about Robin Williams’ personal life, but I know he had success,  kids who loved him and an adoring public. He could see the best doctors and seek help at rehabilitation centers. But even with all that he could not find the light, the reason to wake up and keep fighting.  Perhaps the medications that helped him also dampened the manic persona that made him so famous.  Maybe he was trying to find the right dose, the right pill, the right therapist, the right confidante. I don’t know, but what I do know, as someone who has struggled with depression, is that the scariest feeling in the world is hopelessness.  For some, a brief moment of it- akin to touching a hot stove- is enough to cause them to pull back and get help.  For others, they can’t pull themselves away from that darkness and stay in pain and dispair on a daily basis. It’s horrible to think that Robin Williams felt this way, it makes my heart hurt. And it makes me mad to hear people calling his decision to die selfish and cowardly. He was ill, and we should not blame those who struggle with with mental illness for their affliction, just as we would never blame someone for getting cancer.  He did not make this choice with sound mind and body, he made it in desperation. To free himself of his pain and those he loved of the burden of watching him suffer.

If anyone reading this is, or ever has, felt any form of depression know that you are not alone. Not even close. There are people who can help all around you. Ask for help, call a hotline, see your doctor. There is no shame in seeking treatment for mental distress and illness. I only hope that from all this sadness comes some awareness regarding this difficult, brutal, hard to understand disease.

Rest in peace, Robin.

Renovation Update: Days Away!

A quick addition update before I leave for a couple days to shoot a project in Scarsdale, NY… we are about a week and change away from being done with construction! We had our built ins installed yesterday and things are really, really taking shape!

In the master suite entry hall we devised a set of built-ins to serve as Andrew’s closet and they came out awesome. The special mirrored doors are en route, but already Andrew is psyched about how much storage he has, and I ADORE the bookcase in the middle! :)

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Michelle Smith’s Sea & City Homes

In perusing the internet and blog world recently I came across not one but TWO homes that belong to New York designer Michelle Smith- one in Sag Harbor (via Lonny) and her city apartment in Greenwich Village via (One King’s Lane).  I am loving her non-fussy, laid back, collected-over-time look in both homes. This kind of understated design always feels natural, comfortable and timeless to me.
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Obsessed with the detail on this table. OBSESSED.

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Fashion Friday: Wearing Navy & Black Together

I asked readers on Twitter yesterday if there was any topic they were interested in for today’s post, and one person simply said “Can you really wear navy and black together?”  I thought that was a good question.  Wearing navy and black together has been one of those fashion rule no-no’s (like wearing white before Memorial Day- most people no longer “abide” by them.  There was a lot of navy and black together on the fall runways so I think we all need to be versed in how to pair these moody, dark colors together in a tasteful and clever way.

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